Tag Archives: Babies

Fear and Labor

16 Jan

Here. Omg. This is up! I feel super cool and all embarrassed, and I’m so honored to have my writing up at The Feminist Breeder!

San Francisco seemed as good as any place to pee on a stick. After two weeks of driving cross-country feeling a little off, blaming car sickness and altitude changes for my nausea and exhaustion, it was time for more wine, one last cigarette and the inevitable. (Read more)

An essay about my fear, (terror?) of having a baby and how I transformed into someone I’d never thought I’d be.

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Paul Grossmann took this of my gigantic boy belly. He's an awesome photographer you should know.

When I found out I was pregnant, I was scared shitless and was really looking for someone else who was just like me and got through it.

The fact that women do it every day, have multiple children etc. did not matter. I thought my fear was something no one else had or could even understand. What I found was women who were anxiously anticipating the arrivals of their little bundles, not someone who wondered if she could just ask to be knocked out and have them take the baby out. (Although, I was also terrified and mistrusting of hospitals, doctors and bitchy labor and delivery nurses.)

This essay is a small snippet of my entire experience, but a really important snippet. If one other terrified pregnant woman who envisions childbirth as the climax to a bad (good) torture-horror film finds this and is calmed, at least for a moment, I’ll feel pretty good.

Most Heartbreaking Line of All Time

14 Dec

In “Goodnight Moon,” the narrator enumerates the items found in the great green room of a little bunny-boy, only to then say goodnight to each one. Most of the things listed are tangible–kittens, mittens, a brush, a bowl full of mush, a creepy old lady knitting. But, after each thing is bid adieu for the night, this blank page and these stark, sorrowful words interrupt the pattern in a most heartbreaking way.

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Most Beautiful Line Ever Written

13 Dec

In this scene, Toad, paralyzed by the loss of his To Do list, can’t do anything. Frog joins him in a lovely show of friendship and compassion.

My heart aches; it’s so full.

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Nipple Confusion is probably goth.

9 Dec

Jason Reitman’s new movie, “Young Adult,” looks great, of course. It is just about everything I like in a movie, (even though it’s written by Diablo Cody… that’s a whole other topic.) But, I like it even more after catching a glimpse of this on the trailer.

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OMG! NIPPLE CONFUSION!! Best name for a band ever!

What other breastfeeding/parenting/baby related stuff makes for great band names???